It was one of those weeks! A week where: my professor announced a surprise quiz, I got stuck in a traffic jam twice which caused me to be late to class, I did my project wrong, I spent an hour trying to fix a machine at school and ended up leaving frustrated, my screen protector on my phone messed up, my hair hadn’t been washed in eight days, and my computer started slowing down. It was just one of those weeks where nothing seemed to go right, nothing seemed to work out. One of those weeks that leaves you frustrated, questioning whether you are even in God’s will, or questioning if you even have what it takes. One of those weeks where you are juggling so much that dropping things is just inevitable.
Most of the time on one of those weeks I just brush it off, pray, read my Bible, get a good night’s rest and have peace in knowing that tomorrow will be better. However, on this particular week, I couldn’t move on. I got on my knees and prayed a simple prayer: “God, I feel like everything is falling apart and all I have left is trust.” As soon as these words left my mouth, Proverbs 3:5 came to my mind. “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.”
In that moment, Jesus opened my eyes to see that when all I have left is trust, I have all that I need. Jesus didn’t call us to juggle or balance everything in life. Jesus didn’t call us to keep it all together and find strength within ourselves. Jesus didn’t call us to be self sufficient and independent. Jesus called us to trust in His ways, trust in His plans, and lean on Him, not our own understanding. Jesus called us to let His power be made perfect in our weaknesses (2 Corinthians 12:9).
When I depend on myself or focus on my plans, I never have enough. I am constantly unsuccessfully balancing or feeling like a failure during everyday tasks. But when all I have to depend on is my trust in the Lord, when I acknowledge Him in all that I do, “…He will direct my paths (Proverbs 3:6).”
So if you feel like you are not measuring up to be the perfect mom, student, employee, or woman of God, I encourage you to throw away that unrealistic yardstick. Let go of the view of how perfect your life should be. Realize that if all you have is trust, you have all that you need and you have a God that is able to do far more than what you ask or think (Ephesians 3:20).
Sarah, 21, is from Texas and is the middle sibling out of three girls in the Barnhill family. She recently graduated from Stephen F. Austin State University with her Bachelor’s degree. Her favorite snack happens to be Cheddar Jalapeno Cheetos!