“I don’t deserve it.”
Have you ever said these words before? Have you ever felt like you didn’t deserve the good things in your life, the people that love you, the calling placed on your life, or God’s mercy and grace? Have you ever felt like you didn’t deserve the life you live? If you answered yes to any of these questions: You are not alone.
We as humans see our weaknesses above everything else. We see our faults, our fears, our shame, and our brokenness. Sometimes we focus on the wrong in us so much that we forget Who made us right. Romans 4:25 says, “He was handed over to die because of our sins, and he was raised to life to make us right with God.” Jesus Christ did not die so we could live in fear and shame because of who we are. He was crucified on the cross to give us hope of a new life and joy in every season. The Bible plainly tells us that we are fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of our Lord, yet as humans we still see that we are not enough. We feel like because of our past, our faults, our fears, we cannot be loved or cherished the way we are meant to be. We feel like our brokenness hinders us from living a life full of joy, hope, and love. A life of enjoying the amazing things that God has blessed us with: a great family, a spouse that loves us, an anointed and growing ministry. We feel like because of our brokenness, we do not deserve the beautiful things in life.
Yet, we forget what makes the amazing things in life so beautiful: We don’t deserve them.
We don’t deserve God’s mercy and grace. We don’t deserve to live a life full of peace and joy. We don’t deserve to be used by God. Humans don’t deserve all of the blessings the Lord has given them. If we deserved what Jesus has blessed us with, we would not live a life full of thankfulness and faith. We would not be grateful or give all of the glory to God. That is why we must live life as Romans 5:2 explains: “Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory.”
Live life not thinking about what you don’t deserve, but focus on what Jesus wants you to have. He wants you to have a life full of love, days full of joy, and a mind full of peace. He wants to anoint you, use you, and show His strength through your weakness. He wants you to focus on Him and His plan, not what you actually deserve. Enjoy the blessings God has given you, let go of the past, forget perfection, and live an undeservingly beautiful life.
Sarah Barnhill, 21, is from Texas and is the middle sibling out of three girls in the Barnhill family. She recently graduated from Stephen F. Austin State University with her Bachelor’s degree. Her favorite snack happens to be Cheddar Jalapeno Cheetos!