Stuck in a Fairytale

Sometimes, when life get to us, we can feel lost. We feel lost until the next church service. Then it all comes back to us – just to lose ourselves again. Have you ever heard the metaphor of “getting lost in a book”? Where you read a book that so good you just can’t put it down? Living the life of an Apostolic Girl can be like that.

You see your friends out going to parties and it looks like they’re having so much fun. You see other teenage girls with boyfriends. You look at someone’s swim suit post and at how many likes they get. You start to get lost in this lie social media tells of how great their lives are. Until… you learn that teenage girl got pregnant. That boy from your High School overdosed. Their mom committed suicide. These things are real. Instagram is not.

It’s easy to get lost in a fantasy world. People can take one look at your life on instagram and call it perfect, but you have to see what’s behind the filter. It’s hard to not get lost in a perfect world. People get jealous and they want what they’ve been told that they can’t have. Being an Apostolic might mean you have to sacrifice some things. But it is all in God’s plan. Just imagine all the horrible things God has saved you from! You do not have to feel lost, because all you have to do is pray and give your baggage to Him. And, He can do it over and over again.

The Bible says “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” – Hebrews 11:1

This is something that we need to think about. God wants us to have faith in his works. He needs us to have faith in Him and understand why He leads us away from the temptations of this world. You are never too lost to be found.

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Undeservingly Beautiful

“I don’t deserve it.”

Have you ever said these words before? Have you ever felt like you didn’t deserve the good things in your life, the people that love you, the calling placed on your life, or God’s mercy and grace? Have you ever felt like you didn’t deserve the life you live? If you answered yes to any of these questions: You are not alone.

We as humans see our weaknesses above everything else. We see our faults, our fears, our shame, and our brokenness. Sometimes we focus on the wrong in us so much that we forget Who made us right. Romans 4:25 says, “He was handed over to die because of our sins, and he was raised to life to make us right with God.” Jesus Christ did not die so we could live in fear and shame because of who we are. He was crucified on the cross to give us hope of a new life and joy in every season. The Bible plainly tells us that we are fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of our Lord, yet as humans we still see that we are not enough. We feel like because of our past, our faults, our fears, we cannot be loved or cherished the way we are meant to be. We feel like our brokenness hinders us from living a life full of joy, hope, and love. A life of enjoying the amazing things that God has blessed us with: a great family, a spouse that loves us, an anointed and growing ministry. We feel like because of our brokenness, we do not deserve the beautiful things in life.

Yet, we forget what makes the amazing things in life so beautiful: We don’t deserve them.

We don’t deserve God’s mercy and grace. We don’t deserve to live a life full of peace and joy. We don’t deserve to be used by God. Humans don’t deserve all of the blessings the Lord has given them. If we deserved what Jesus has blessed us with, we would not live a life full of thankfulness and faith. We would not be grateful or give all of the glory to God. That is why we must live life as Romans 5:2 explains: “Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory.”

Live life not thinking about what you don’t deserve, but focus on what Jesus wants you to have. He wants you to have a life full of love, days full of joy, and a mind full of peace. He wants to anoint you, use you, and show His strength through your weakness. He wants you to focus on Him and His plan, not what you actually deserve. Enjoy the blessings God has given you, let go of the past, forget perfection, and live an undeservingly beautiful life.

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Sarah Barnhill, 21, is from Texas and is the middle sibling out of three girls in the Barnhill family. She recently graduated from Stephen F. Austin State University with her Bachelor’s degree. Her favorite snack happens to be Cheddar Jalapeno Cheetos!

New Year, New You

New Year resolutions usually look the same for most people: lose weight, start exercising and eating right. This is a list for the physical – we ladies want to be healthy and maintain our youthful figures, right? But what if we applied these resolutions to our spiritual bodies as well?

Lose WeightHebrews 12:1 says to lay aside every weight that easily hinders our Christian walk and entangles us in sin. Maybe it is something as simple as a lack of self control over shopping or social media. Maybe it is a little heavier, like a relationship that keeps tripping you up. These weights are pounds that you need to shed! Feel lighter this year and start to lose those burdens that are keeping you from feeling light and free to run the Christian race.

Exercise – Start building up those spiritual muscles and exercising your faith. (Jude 1:20) The only way you get stronger is to start working out. If you want more faith, if you want to be used in the gifts of the spirit and if you want to have powerful moments with God, it starts small. Start lifting 5 pound weights at first (pray for 5 minutes a day) and eventually you’ll start taking getting stronger. Build up your courage to invite a co-worker to church and eventually you’ll be handing out church cards to everyone you come in contact with! During your prayer time, as God to give you opportunities to exercise your most holy faith on a daily basis.

Eat Right – Time to cut out the junk food and start feeding your spiritual body right. Quite watching, listening to and eating junk food. (Psalm 101:3) No more cheat days filled with sugar, processed foods and preservatives. It’s time to cut out the secular music that fills your mind with inappropriate imagery. It’s time to stop watching the movies that takes your thoughts to places they should avoid. Start eating the WORD. King David said in Psalm 119:11 that he hid God’s Word in his heart to avoid sinning. You are what you eat!

May your bodies AND souls be healthy this New Year! What are some areas you’ve decided to “whip into shape” this year for your heart, mind and soul? Share with us at mail@apostolicgirl.com – we’d love to hear from you!

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Shenae Andrus, 28, is the wife of Pastor Joel Andrus and the dog-mom of Mr. Behr Andrus. They all three live in Milford, DE and act as Co-Pastors of Lighthouse Christian Center, as well as Youth President of the NJ/DE Youth Department of UPCI General Youth Ministries. She is obsessed with calligraphy, music, Starbucks Chai-Tea Lattes, shopping and global travel.

Get to Where He Is

Growing up in the ministry, I have seen many cases of struggle. Different individuals, with different situations, with different issues.

It’s a part of life. You don’t make it through without a few bumps (or catastrophic jagged mountains) in the road. Some things are easy to overcome and conquer along the journey. Other things are a continuous climb, finding it hard to breath, encountering injuries along the way, and wondering if you’ll ever feel peace again.

I have seen people who overcome their struggles, while others continue fighting until this day. What’s the difference? How does one defeat depression, low self-esteem, negativity, bad attitudes, and tormenting thoughts?

I love to research random events in history. Inspiring events that I don’t know much about. One in particular that has fallen into my radar is the story of the “Miracle in the Andes”.

In 1972, a charter plane carrying 45 passengers of a rugby team with their friends and family crashed onto the Andes Mountains. 18 died instantly and due to sickness, injuries, the unbearable cold, and an avalanche, the 27 left slowly dwindled down to 16. As I studied, I was stricken with sadness learning of all they had to encounter. They melted snow for water, essentially ate their luggage and the cushion of plane seats, eventually turned to cannibalism of the dead passengers, and had to bare the news received from the radio announcing that the search party for them had been cancelled.

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Nando Parrado and Roberto Canessa, two men that survived, knew that they all were going to die if they stayed where they were at. Several planes had already passed over, but they were well hid by the snow and they didn’t have enough resources to create something to catch attention from the sky’s view. After about 60 days since the plane crash, Parrado and Canessa headed out into the wilderness alone. Long story short, they walked and battled the harsh conditions for 10 days to find any kind of civilization. Well, they did. A small village where the residents came to the rescue. After caring for Parrado and Canessa, helicopters were sent out on the next clear day to save the other passengers.

Pretty inspiring story, huh? I hope you can see the connection I’m making here. These individuals were caught in the most unimaginable dire circumstances. They knew to be saved, they couldn’t stay another day in the same predicament. They were desperate and knew change was the only way not to die.

God has liberty, victory, and freedom just waiting for you! He’s on the other side of the mountain, just across the river after a 10 day journey. It wasn’t easy for Parrado and Canessa to get there, but they sure didn’t complain once they did. Whatever you’re struggling with and no matter how long you’ve been struggling with it-even if it’s been more than 60 days!; you can achieve that liberation you so desperately want. IF you’re desperate enough. Get to where God is. MOVE. Refuse to stay another day in your misery and despair. Tell your mind to get up and go to where joy and peace can be found. It’s not in a physical building, but a state of mind.

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Charity Huba is a 23 year old Floridian who can’t get enough sunshine and days at the beach. She leads in music and the youth group she grew up in. She works for the government in the Division of Elections. She’s in love with quality time with her loved ones, musicals, and moon-lit nights.

Beware the Signs

If you were to walk up to me, point your finger in my face, and accuse me of backsliding… “Offended” would hardly describe my feelings toward you.

It’s funny how we think we’re exempt from the possibility of backsliding. We see it happen all around us and never contemplate the likelihood of it being a reality for ourselves. But, we are human and are faced with temptations daily. No one, and I mean no one, is exempt from temptation of turning away from God. So, daily we must study ourselves for accountability.

The moment you think you are fine and lower your guard…is the moment you’re right where the devil wants you. The Devil lurks around waiting for numb minds that give themselves over to complacency. Complacency (a spiritual life of comfort; void of hunger for God) turns into a dead conscience and a passionless relationship with Jesus. This leads one to be susceptible to anything that attacks them.

Don’t ever stop examining yourself for any spiritual flaws or imperfections. You can never stop trying to be more holy! Before ministry, before any dream, or desire; our priority above all should be wanting to be a vessel acceptable in the sight of the righteous God.

Never become “cocky” and overly confident to think that you don’t have to keep yourself in check. Doing this consists of much prayer, fasting, personal evaluation, and accountability from others (a friend, pastor’s wife, youth pastor’s wife, etc.)

In these last days, the pressure of this world and devises of the enemy are more relentless than ever. You MUST make sure you are truly stable and steadfast!

Galatians 6:7, “Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.”

Sometimes we can “lie” to ourselves. We know of that secret sin, the silent struggle, and invisible temptation that pesters us daily. Don’t be afraid to admit you’re imperfect, because God knows we all are! Be honest with yourself and seek help. Seek God. Get desperate with him!

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Charity is a 23 year old Floridian. She is the financial secretary for her church and works at Division of Elections for the State. She drives an old beat-up 2000 Honda Accord that has one wind shield wiper and her favorite Disney princess is Pocahontas!

Keep on Waiting: Charity Huba

From to the beginning of time, man has never ceased in wanting to be in control. It’s been in our DNA from the first human; to be curious and try to take matters into our own hands-thanks a lot, Eve! We can all personally testify to being pushy and obsessive when it comes to our future, our well-being, and most commonly our romantic relationships. It’s natural!

But, poor God. You think after creating all the universe and every living creature in it, he’d have a little credibility for knowing what he’s doing! We live in a society that does not rely or pay respect to God. Our culture is very self-sufficient. Everyone is expected to make their own way, determine their destiny, and create their own future. Jesus has definitely given us the freedom to make our own decisions, but if we truly want the best and blessed life, we must leave him in control! He has plans for you that are transcendent than what you want for yourself. I don’t know about you, but I have wild plans and expectations for what I am to do with myself. But, it doesn’t scratch the surface of what God could create for me if I let him.

There is numerous scripture on waiting on the Lord: (Isiah 64:4, Hebrews 6:12, Psalms 33:20-21). But, there’s one in particular that will make you look at being patient with God a little differently.

Isaiah 30:18 “And therefore will the Lord wait, that he may be gracious unto you, and therefore will he be exalted, that he may have mercy upon you: for the Lord is a God of judgment: blessed are all they that wait for him.”

This scripture is a bit of a “toe stepper”. God waits on us all the time: every time we sin, are unfaithful, and deserving of His judgment. So, we have no right to be impatient with the one who is perfect and without flaw! He is forbearing with us…why should He deserve any less? He doesn’t need our mercy or forgiveness, but He does expect trust in return for His daily tolerance with our fickleness. Wait on God, because he often waits on you.

But, beyond the fact that God deserves our belief and confidence, waiting on the Lord is the only way to live! This is why suicide rates are high, stress levels are through the roof, and psychiatrists have people lined up outside their doors. People try to depend on themselves for a happy and bright future…and it never works without God. Do yourself a favor and keep yourself from a tiring life of frustration, worry, and stress. You’ll never regret to make the decision to keep on waiting.

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Charity is a 23 year old Floridian. She is the financial secretary for her church and works at Division of Elections for the State. She drives an old beat-up 2000 Honda Accord that has one wind shield wiper and her favorite Disney princess is Pocahontas!

A Woman of Worship: Sarah Barnhill

Many people are mentioned in the Bible. Some of these people are known for greatness and some are known for the opposite; however, one woman is known for both. This woman remains nameless, but is mentioned in Luke 7:36-50. This woman heard one night that Jesus was invited to dine at a Pharisee’s house. She hurried over to the dinner party with her most valuable possession in hand, her alabaster box. When she arrived she immediately went to Jesus and knelt at His feet. In a true act of worship, this woman began weeping at the feet of Jesus. She washed His feet with her tears and dried them with her hair. She kissed His feet and anointed them with the perfume from her alabaster box. Others at the table mocked this woman’s worship, calling her a sinful woman, but Jesus looked through the surface and saw the heart of this nameless woman. On this night, Jesus forgave that woman of her sins and used her worship as an example for the others.

This story speaks volumes to me because of one reason: I am a sinner and Jesus saved me. In these scriptures, Jesus explains that the ones who have a greater debt forgiven will have a greater love for the one who forgave. This is how I view my life. I am a sinner and I do not deserve the mercy, grace, and love that the Lord shows me every single day, but through His forgiveness I have found a greater love for my God. When Jesus died on the cross He changed my identity from sinner to a child of God. He saved me.

Before this night, this woman was known as a sinner, but after walking by faith and giving her all to God, this woman became known for her worship. Her story is now taught in Sunday school, preached on, and remembered as a story of a woman with a great love for God. Even though this woman was not perfect, she did not let her past determine her future. She did not let her mistakes keep her from going to Jesus that night to worship Him. This woman may not be named in the Bible, but she will always be known. She will not be remembered for her many mistakes that the Pharisee pointed out, but for her worship that Jesus admired.

In today’s society we can become so caught up in the idea of people knowing our name; however, this woman’s faith has challenged me. I want to be known as a woman with a great love for God. A woman that lays everything she has at the Lord’s feet. A woman that cannot miss an opportunity to humbly kneel before Jesus. A woman that is not afraid of what others might think or say because I am too enraptured by the love I have for the Lord and the love He shows me every single day. I want to be known as a woman of worship.

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Sarah, 21, is from Texas and is the middle sibling out of three girls in the Barnhill family. She recently graduated from Stephen F. Austin State University with her Bachelor’s degree. Her favorite snack happens to be Cheddar Jalapeno Cheetos!